the world is just so messed up. why do these things happen?

time and time again, i’ve been let down. time and time again, i’ve been disappointed. life has just shown me that optimism wont get me anywhere. i cant expect anything

what makes something good? what makes something bad? what makes something right? what makes something wrong? why? well, from what i think, society has decided on the fine lines between good and bad, and right and wrong. i really want to know how this happened. who started this? who started to think “skinny” is pretty and “fat” is not? who decided that big eyes, straight nose, and a small mouth is beautiful? at one point, “fat” was beautiful. but now, it’s just the opposite. how did that happen? why is big not beautiful? why aren’t small eyes, crooked noses, big lips beautiful? 

i’m just so perplexed by the judgement of people, and how it got to this point, here. i’m not agreeing or disagreeing, i just have my opinions; what i believe. it doesnt mean i’m rght, nor does it mean that i’m wrong. i just want to know what the mass majority of people are certain about things that really, cant be backed up with facts or proof. like why is lying bad? why is stealing bad? why is “fat” unattractive? why is thin/slender attractive? 

you can argue it either way, but in the end, who’s right?

i’ve gone out of my way to show you that i have the answers. but when you really needed me to give you an explanation, i didnt have one.

there are some things you do that just… bother me. i know i’m not in the situation so i cant fully understand, but from what i know and what i see, you’re being difficult. she wasnt obligated to let you back in, she didnt have to do that for you. you needed help and she gave it to you. just imagine what you would be like if she didnt help you. yet you constantly throw tantrums, yell at her, scream at her, throw things, slam things, and just treat her so horribly. everyone gets pissed and it’s understandable why you’re so irritated by her, but you honestly need to be more appreciative. she’s done a lot for you and no one is perfect. all that, aside from the fact how your bad moods unpleasantly affect those around you too. you just kill the mood for everyone there. there’s being annoyed, and there’s being ungrateful. just think about how things would be for you right now if she wasnt there to help you when you had no where to go

this needs to STOP. this is affecting me WAY more than it should be. i’m not motivated to do anything and i’ve been feeling like shit.